Below are the 7 most recent journal entries recorded in collapseinstyle's LiveJournal:

Monday, May 24th, 2004
10:45 am	but i am too weak to be your cure... my titles have been completely irrelevant to my entries lately...oh well. last night fucking ruled. i didn't get home until 6am, again, for about the fourth night in a row, i really need to quit that shit! me, zach, and joel went over to jessica j's and drank with sly, jon, ron, ana, molly, jessica e, jessica j, hannah, sarah, and birkdorf. let's just say, the ratio was good and good time was had by all or at least by two lucky couples. i tried to introduce everyone there to the kick ass drinking game, fuck you, that mandi taught me, but they were all too drunk to learn so we just played circle of death, i hate that game. so anyway, last night completely made it seem like saturday didn't even happen. it was really rad...and hopefully i'll be seeing more of those kids in the future...one in particular. anyway, i'm off to shower, then off to class, then back home to sleep. i'm resting tonight and tomorrow, i have my first test on wednesday, it's time to start busting ass... Current Mood: opaque Current Music: brand new (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 23rd, 2004
6:32 pm	is there a way out, i've got this blood on my hands...if there's a safer route, i'm all for it Take the quiz: "Which American City Are You?" Cleveland You are blue collar and Rock n Roll. You Work hard and party harder. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: the get up kids ~ guilt show ~ track 12 (Comment on this)
3:18 am	let's set our hearts at self-destruct... tonight didn't go as well as it should have or as i hoped it would. i hung out a jessica's for bit, i didn't really feel like going out because my allergies are really kicking my ass but i was really looking forward to hanging with someone that didn't even show up, so i could have just stayed home and rested...oh well...it happens. so i just drank a little, then didn't feel like drinking, talked to gabe at length, he rules, then lisa showed up and made me drink a little bit more, then pablo and i went to the red eye for some dinner and a chat. he's good people, i really like that guy. he really makes me think and see things much more clearly, and i feel as though i do the same for him...he's a good person to be emo with. i recieved a drunken call from ashley and amanda tonight, that was fun!! they're coming up next weekend, it's gonna be fucking rad, we're gonna make the streets of this city run fucking red with rivers of blood!!! my allergies are bugging me and i can't breathe...i look i've been crying all night and people keep asking me what's wrong...but i'm just fucking sick, leave me alone!!! all these drinks and drugs no longer help.... Current Mood: tired Current Music: the bled (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, May 21st, 2004
3:14 pm	you are so unoriginal...i tried to forget...but your stigma hasn't worn yet ok, so danielle and i just found the raddest apt ever. i'm not even going to put in words how amazing this place is, just wait til you see it!!! party at our place when we move in...but shoes off at the door!!! and no self destructive drunks, please!! the apt is really high up and we don't need any deaths on our first week of residency. i'm almost all out of debt...and i'll be ready to roll by the time late july or early august rolls around...or just whenever we can get into that place cause we're not passing it by! i got paid today! but not enough, just enough to cover bills this month. i only have like twenty hours on this check, i need either a new job or they need to start giving me more hours! oh shit...i was gonna rant on about my emotional dependence on other people, particularly females and how i've reached this realization and am working on the cure...but my foods here bitches!!! i gotta eat!!!! Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: pedro the lion (1 Comment |Comment on this)
3:05 am	i trust these tears, they're the only truth i know... well today sucked until about 8pm rolled around. i was sick all day because of the damn cottonwood or whatever the fuck was floating around the air all day. not only was a numb til 6pm because i had some mad dental work done this morning but i couldn't breathe either. and i couldn't sniff cause i couldn't use the muscles in my face...it sucked!! what a terrible day! anyway...i did buy the new pedro the lion today, and it's fucking great! very therapeutic lyrics, this guy is great! musically control was much better, but this album holds its own in the lyrics. anyway...what else......i saw jessica, brittany, zach, chris, brady, and paul tonight. zach and i had girl talk, we are in the same exact situation and it sucks...oh well...it happens sometimes i guess huh? i also talked with brittany for a while. i fucking love talking to that girl...shes so damn real...she tells you exactly how it is and doesn't hold back. she really made me think tonight and made me reach a very important realization about myself that really helped explain some things. i really think everyone will notice a difference in my attitude...i can't thank her enough. ya know...sometimes i really wish things would have worked out with us, it's too bad they didn't! tomorrows gonna be rad, besides working from 4-10 i have a pretty good feeling about tomorrow. in the morning, danielle and i are going apt shopping. we're looking for a two bed/two bath in the downtown area. it's hard to find one in all the older buildings. we found a really kick ass place in castleton called amli at the riverbend. they're really nice, and a pretty good price. the only thing is, is its in castleton, that's so far from everyone. but its right on 465...plus the closest bus stop for danielle is like a 20 minute walk. anyway...after work tomorrow i'm going over to amy's where everyone will already be drunk by the time i get there but it'll be fun nonetheless. i've never hung out with any of these people but they all seem pretty rad, for the most part, so friday should be fun. saturday will be even more fun. we're going to jessica's...it'll be fun...i get to see tanya again...finally...and pablo too...that'll be rad. i'm not drinking though...no more drinking for this kid...at least for like a month. well, i'm off to bed...unfortunately my mind has been fucking drained tonight (in a good way) therefore i have no moment of zen for you... **think of yourself for yourself** Current Mood: tired Current Music: pedro the lion (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 20th, 2004
3:58 am	as the red paint spills like blood on the canvas that is my life... today was pretty rad. i went to school, and learned stuff, which made me feel pretty good, went to work and had some heart to heart conversatoin with erin...she's MUCH cooler than i thought she was...i think i'll be kicking it with her soon...then i picked up danielle and we went to dike's. got drunk with danielle, wigger, lisa, mandy, and mike, it was awesome!! then lisa started breaking bottles...then joel, zach, and two other people showed up, and they started breaking bottles. i think wigger was getting pissed...i would be too...he's alright, i had him all wrong...i like that guy...he's good people. i drunk dialed literally...every single person in my phone book in my phone except for those i was with...tanya cause she has to work...pablo cause he has to work...and chad because he hates it when i call late...but everyone else got a phone call!!! :) sorry if i woke you!! my phone bill's gonna suck next month!! so, i drove home...drunk...shouldn't have...but i did...not too drunk...but drunk enough...and i'm here, and going to bed now...i leave you with your moment of zen... "fuck" ~ timmy mother fucking quinlan Current Mood: drunk Current Music: nina simone (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 19th, 2004
5:18 am	your taste still lingers on my lips like i just placed them upon yours today was pretty rad, yet uneventful. i got very little homework done, hung out with danielle for a bit, jessica for a bit, then went to the red eye to study and socialize with alicia. mandy showed up at the red eye around 12:45 or so...we sat, talked, and drank coffee and tea til about 2:45 then we went all the way to her house in carmel and watched some eddie izzard. stayed there til about 5am, came home. tomorrow is mandy's going away party on the westside, and i will be attending. she's a pretty radtastic chic. well, i have to get up in a few hours because i have class and work til 10 tomorrow. oh well! :( after work is the party, too bad i can't drink though, i have a dentist appt on thursday morning! :( then hopefully i'll be getting dinner with tanya at the thai garden...given that she feels better. i hope she does! and now, your moment of zen... **anime porn** oh boy, some stories never get old. :) Current Music: copeland (1 Comment |Comment on this)